Staying positive without pretending - 4 months and counting

Being out of work for 4 months has worn me down more than I expected. I have read a lot of threads here and could not find my exact situation. I do not want to pretend I am fine. What helps you?

I told two friends how I really felt. It was uncomfortable, but it made things lighter.

If things feel unbearable, please call or text 988 in the United States at any hour.